Forever and Always,
Not Kim *wink*
|me:||i'm just going to rest my eyes for 5 minutes.|
|me:||wakes up march 27th, 2098.|
Before you, life was not easy. It never is and never will be. But you give me something to look forward to. At some point I thought of you not being there for me…at all. I mean, what if destiny betrayed me and lead you to another person? What if we never met? What if I was meant to be alone for the rest of my life? Those lonely days when I’d wish you’d come early. Ugh.
I don’t care if you won’t have Austin Butler’s face, Zac Efron’s body, Channing Tatum’s ass or Jake Rossati’s feels. I just want you to be able to make me laugh. Remember, girls always go for personality, good looks are just bonus prizes. I’m just so glad I met you. We’d do silly things together, go on adventures, take pictures, look into each other’s eyes, share kisses in the rain, travel together and tell how much we love each other — just like the movies. Or, it doesn’t have to be all romantic, love-dovey; just plain and simple. I just want you. I just want to eat and have beers with you. And maybe watch a movie or a concert or crack jokes together. Can we do that?
By the time you are reading this, I am assuming that you and I are in a state of slowly merging our very different worlds together. I do hope we’ll work out. I hope you’ll understand me for all my flaws. I am not a very lovable person you know, I can be the laziest, crankiest, and most immature person in the world. You’re going to be so annoyed at me that you’ll regret ever deciding to date me. I’m not very pretty either. I hope it doesn’t bother you. Truth be told, i’m scared i might not be good enough.
When we fight, either it will be the smallest or the worst of all fights. (god-Like, SUPER god-Like kind of fights). It’s ok to be mad at me but I’ll promise you I’ll stay. And I’ll hope you’ll do too.
You are a dude, you also have your own ways in dealing with what’s going on between us but please don’t put so much pressure on me or I will try to push you away to seal my feeble heart from possible wounds. Let’s take things slow. Wherever this relationship takes us, I want you to still be you — the person I fell in love the first time.
Just in case our relationship won’t last till forever, I want you to remember that you were one of the best parts of my forever. I will always love to have that memory that one time in my life, there was this boy who made my heart skip a beat, made me feel alive, gave me butterflies in my stomach, and let me understand love and pain in some way. Even if this turns out not the way I was expecting it to be, I’m just glad that somehow, we were two people chilling out, enjoying each other’s company.
Remember that God works in His own ways. He always has something greater in store for us than the love we offer to Him and to others.
I’m not sure I’m exactly ready for you. And i really think i’m not. But, one day, when I find you, I want you to love me as much as I’ll love you. No pressure.
P.S. please don’t freak out in case you’ll find out that i’ve been dreaming about you even before we’ve met. (but probably will never happen so, ok)